Pujo 08~ (part one)

SO many people!!....Everywhere.!!...Just people and more people.
It's like this crazy rush everywhere. All sorts of colours and creatures. Aray, I mean u know everyone dresses up like a lot during this time. Well, most people do.(that doesnt mean everyone looks good okay!) Like every year cal pujo is the most happening time of the year. It's like this one big "biye bari" where everyone's invited.

All sorts of mishti and "khabar-dabar" all over the place with the addition of unknown relatives popping in from here and there and everywhere. Now I personally don't have a problem with them because I jsut ignore them, but this whole deal of barging into my room jst to pull my cheeks and watch me wear a sari is very annoying. Ma baba just refuse to understand and play along!!
The sole reason as to why I put up with this nonsense- "Goodies!!!!"( $$$$$)
Yes, I know you must be thinking what a selfish brat I am. *bows*

The good part- All night out with friends. We went to the most random places ever. Not to mention stopping over at the taj bengal just because people wanted to pee!!.=)
We drove around the entire city- from mohamad ali park and college street to behala and bosepukur. We went to salt lake and airport side too. We stopped over at Gautams for chocolate milkshake, coffee and this horrible egg roll which made mudita siddharth n me sick!!
At about 2:30 am we went to jodhpur park. Didnt quite seem like its was the middle of the night. Soooo many people....sucha lotta noise....sooo much of traffic!!" baap re baap"
We did balloon shooting where rashi and addy displayed some pretty good talent. Then came the rides. Mudita siddharth addy n me were jumping for the ferris wheel where as shreedhar chickened out and aastha followed suit. hahahahahahahahaha!!
Since I tend to feel a little scared initially on the ride and addy is well aware of that, he decides to keep my mnd of it by talking about the wierdest things ever- the CAT exams. Last year I remember we had to talk about maths!!...sheesh!...Just imagine. I need a 14 year old to calm me down on a ride.

By the time we finished with the ride, mudita and I were on the verge of puking. (its the egg rolls fault im telling u ).
We pushed off to lake ccd.There we realized that they have only one loo!!!!....God!!
We hung around there for sometime while addy doodled on siddharth's phone after eating up everyone's sandwiches and rashi was giving the ccd ppl advice on their table arrangements and how they should have extra ketchup and mustard sachets on their tables. oh well, after that got over we left. We dropped Mudita home and then reached tivoli court (oh! thats where addy aastha rashi and I stay!!)

Now here comes the best part. Aastha had told her mom that we'd be back by 1. We came home at 4. We didnt know what to do. We decided to go to Rashi's house and spend the night there and next morning tell aunty that we forgot to take the keys and didnt want to disturb people so we hung out at rashi's house. We were in the lift and suddenly aastha's mom called. We were literally struggling to keep the lift door from opening. Addy like a fool pressed the button and the damn door opened with this huge noise loud enough to wake the dead.

The dirty look all three of us flashed at addy was worth watching. really!
Anyway. We ran to aastha's house and made up this cock n bull story about how we were watching a movie at rashi's place and having a gala time. After a lot of pursuading and sorry saying aunty bought the story. She left and aastha and I sighed in relief and went off to bed.

This was one of the days.
Wait till the next one comes.

Agni

"Agne naya supatha raye asman
visvani deva vayunani vidvan;
Yuyodhyasmajjhuranameno
bhuyistham te nama-uktim vidhema."

Some call it a belief
Some say its tolerance
Some made it the foundation and frame
Some used it as a catalyst within.
Some felt it sooth the moment
Some claimed it to be the end.
Some wanted it to be tamed
sadly they did not know it's not easy dancing with a flame.
It brings the invitation to the world beyond
It bears witness to the 7 promises taken
With its existence comes a new bond
And thus it is then that mankind awakend.

The Twisted Wish

I'm feeling evil on a night like this.
It feels like some kind of a twisted wish.
It's tearing me to shreds, laughing at my helpless Fate.
Oozing down slowly, it's the blood of hate.
Pleasured to the full extent, burning me to the ground.
Smacking its lips, oh look what its found!
Fighting for a lust that turned to ash
Struggling for this lie till it's very last.
Swearing by the night's end, its not going to let me pretend.
Well.....not until its fully content.

Skyla

In the silver majestic moonlight
A fairy tale turns to dust.
As the witching hour begins
So begins the carnival of rust.
Feeling lost and confused
Feeling lost and used.
Dreaming of far off lands, covered in sand
Within all the battles and the sparks
Searching for the light, the light in the dark.
She belongs to the warmth, heat and the flame
Does she believe that life is a game?
Consumed by Fate and mistrust
How will she encounter the truth and the just?
Chasing her own monsters, dreaming her own dreams.
Fighting the freezing cold with fire
Aiming high, she will grasp her desires.
Enabling the impossible without the obvious obstacles
At times locked up in the cages. with her thoughts
Gobbled up in some visually categorized stages.
Resisting the night, enduring the day
Strength, knowledge and power to take them without further delay.

Chaos Theory.

Chaos.
A lot of chaos.
And not because there were 3500 candidates for the exam.
But because of the parents of more than 85% of those candidates.
Man!!.....Do you have the slightest idea as to how annoying it is to have parents fluttering about when you're there for an entrance. It's like my child will die if I don't be with him/her. My child has not given the class 12 exams. He/she has just learned how to walk. I must be with my child or else some grave problem shall befall him/her and thus his/her career will me doomed for ever.
I mean it's like most of the confusion and problem was created but exceptionally nosy parents.
They want their child's name and roll number to be called out before any one else's. They will not breathe till they have personally ensured that the child is sitting in the assigned room.
What's even worse- THEY WILL SPREAD NEWSPAPERS ON THE CORIDOOR LEADING TO THE EXAMINATION HALL AND SIT THERE AND WAIT TILL THE PAPER IS OVER AND THE KID IS OUT.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Lord what has the world come to!!!!...............It's like a rapid fire round regarding the exam awaits them the minute they step out of the hall. It's either that or the fact that they're being stuffed with food in their mouth as if they haven't eaten for centuries cause they were in space all this time. sheeesh!!!!

Most of my entrances were ushered in with a lot of rain!!....A LOT OF RAIN! It was actually quite funny cause watching a whole lot of weird people panic because they thought theywouldn't make it was hilarious. All sorts of colourful umbrellas and parents going wild was one hell of an experience. I had a good laugh.
It's actually been quite a while since I genuinely had a good laugh about such stupid issues.

Admissions-"BLEH"~

As Darwin once said-"we will now discuss. a little bit more in detail, the struggle for existence"

I've been filling all sorts of forms for the past 2-3 weeks and all I can say is this- "COLLEGE ADMISSIONS SUCK!!!!"
At one end you're worrying about getting into a "good" college and at the other end there are your parents (who are just being their usual selves) also worrying along with you. (that's like adding fuel to the fire). Now let me clarify this point here. "Worrying" can be of different kinds.
I'm worried. I have to get into college. A good one. I log on. Search. And do the needful. (fill in forms, go to the damn place, stand in never ending lines etc etc.)
My mom is worried.
She screams at everyone she can lay her eyes on. If I'm out a wee-bit longer than usual I have either decided to run away from home or have lost my way!!!!!.
My dad is worried.
Everyday-"i have done my duty by putting you in a good school. Now it is your responsibility to get into a good college."
(true true.)

THE FORMS!!
Inadequate information about how the damn online forms are supposed to be filled all (not)over the net. The software designed for the submission of online forms especially for calcutta university has definitely fucked up the area where you put in the marks cause all the damn subjects DO NOT FIT!!!!!
You are asked to write down your address atleast 5 times for god alone knows what reason.
Family income has to be mentioned CORRECTLY!!( well obviously. on that basis theyre gonna ask us fer the donation rite??....silly me!)
Some colleges ask you if you're married or not. (i actually wanted to tick yes. dad made a face so i dumped the idea!!)
Most of the colleges make their income through these sheets of paper. The banks are enjoying themselves. Why not!!. The demand drafts made in favour of the colleges give them their incentives too. Example- 60/- application money, 38/-extra charge at the bank. total-98 bucks gone!!!!!......sheesh!!
Some forms have to be attested. School takes ages to attest one damn document. That also they decided to screw up my presi admit card nicely by signing right over my face in the passport size snap. idiots!!

When ur there standing in line (which is like never-ending) and u see practically all your batchmates there applying for the same damn thing as you are- you realize the amount of shit u are in especially when your grades are lower than theirs. What kicks u harder- their sitting for the same entrances as you are!!!!......great!!!!

People usually stand for the forms since like 4 in the morning!!( some enthu man!!). I was fortunate. i did most of my stuff online. on the day of submission i had seniors to help me out and thus that really sped up my applications. (yay!!)

so there you have it. a million xeroxes here and there. all those given for attestation and then school tells u that u have to pay them more than a 100 bucks for a transfer certificate. What's even worse- EVERYONE GETS THE SAME CHARACTER CERTIFICATE!!!!
ROBBERY IN BROAD DAYLIGHT I TELL YOU!!!

oh well. i have entrances to give and a college to get into.
sigh*

*Twilight

I'm going to be 19 in a few days.
when I think about being 19 I get this weird rumble in my tummy.
yes.
it's the last of the teens
I'm not going to be a "teenager" any more.
This white flower is my 18 year old self.
I like this picture.
I'm going to be 19.


I'm 18 right now.
Since I'm going to be 19, I should take some time out and think. 19 is the age to stop and look back. Reality check is on its way. I'm scared to go beyond. I don't know what will happen.
I'm not sure.Love came easily at 17. Didn't realize when its took me away. Well submerged in those eyes entangled in joys too deep to express. That time it was sweet secured and safe.
" so i say a lil prayer and hope my dreams'll take me there
where the skies are blue to see u once again my love"